Wednesday, April 28, 2010

A question of multiplication

Forgive the tender moment, I think it's the hormones!

Recently I have come to realize how lucky I am. I have now stood on both sides of the perverbial fertility fence and how grateful I am for more than one perspective on this part of life. The quest of multiplying and replenishing the earth can really be a difficult thing for some to accomplish. My heart goes out to those who struggle with this.
My struggle was nearly 3 years and included tests that would make your hair curl, drugs that made me so sick I couldn't even stand, and countless hours of the day and night that I plead for comfort and answers. And I was one of the lucky ones!! My drugs worked, and worked earlier than they do for some others.
I talked with a sweet friend of mine a couple of weeks ago about my pregnancy, a friend who struggles with fertility. She knew of the struggle that Chris and I had and had a few questions about my experience. As I later related the conversation to Chris, my heart ached for this sweet woman and I sobbed. I remember the dark nights, the ever-growing void in my heart; I have walked that line, stood where she does now and I know how much it hurts. I still feel a little bit of that pain for those who yearn for this blessing.
I guess the purpose of this post is to send my love and hope and prayers out to those who struggle with this. Please know that you don't walk that path alone. If you have questions, would like to know more about my experience, or simply need an empathetic shoulder to cry on, I hope you know that I am here and I will share any and all knowledge I have acquired through this journey.